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For Alex's birthday, we went to the aquarium! It had been a few years since we went, so it was exciting to get to go back, as always.

Splitting the pictures into two posts, so there aren't too too many in one post. No theme to which pictures are in which post, just a chronological trip through the aquarium.


I love these guys. You walk underneath them and look up at them schooling.


Fourteen more pictures below the cut:


This face made me laugh.


Very atypically-colored trout! It seemed to love showing off, coming right up to the glass, ha.


Posing so perfectly!


Across from the sturgeons (big), there's a reconstruction of a mosasaur (Very Big.)


Little shark and rays!


Smiling ravioli photobomb!


Multi-colored seahorses! I love them.


Seahorse!


The sea is full of bizarre creatures. (YOU CAN SEE THROUGH ITS FACE.)


A little flight of rays.


These guys were cool.


Sharks and flounder!


Little urchin and fashionable shell hat!


Impressive orange lipstick.



Such a lovely tank! So many sea stars.

(And now I am starting to really feel that "spring forward" thing, so I'm going to take a nap, haha.)

Books read in February

Mar. 7th, 2026 07:54 pm
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Unfortunately, my reading did not fully rebound in February. Despite being a bit better recovered, my reading speed still seems to have taken a hit! I was hoping to at least reach six books for the month (if not more,) but only hit four again.


(A nice cover for the anthology.)
We’re Here: The Best Queer Speculative Fiction 2023 edited by Darcie Little Badger; series editor Charles Payseur
2024
Fantasy, Science Fiction, Horror (various subgenres) - various relationships - ebook anthology
4/5 [This is a rounded average of my ratings for the 14 individual stories.]

This is the first book I’ve read from the “2025 Pride” storybundle. (A different company, but similar to Humble Bundle.)

One of the things I’ve wanted to do this year is read more short stories. I typically stick to novel and novella-length works, and my experience with short stories has been hit or miss. I do really admire the ability to write something impactful or interesting or just plain good that’s also very short, so I look forward to trying to read more of them.

This was a decent collection. I appreciate the diversity of authors and story types. I’d say it skews a lot more (though not exclusively) toward f/f stories, and more fantasy than other genres of spec-fic, though there’s a decent amount of sci-fi, and just a few horror. There are also several stories that fall into more than one genre category, which is always a personal favorite.

I think the stories on the whole got better as the collection went on. There weren’t any stories that I didn’t like at all; the lowest rating I gave any was a 3/5. Most fell in the 4 range, with only one that I rated a 5/5. Most of these were by authors I am not familiar with, and I’d be willing to look for more by them in the future.

One disappointment was that there were a lot of spelling, grammar, and formatting errors. I don’t know how many of these were issues in the stories themselves in their original form (in which case the collection editors may not have been able to do anything about it), or how many may have been introduced as part of reformatting them for a new collection. (Formatting in particular may have been due to that, though I would hope that a reformat wouldn’t introduce spelling/grammar problems.) It was enough to be noticeable and frustrating, and was more obvious in some stories than others. I tried for the most part not to factor that in too heavily in my ratings of the stories, except for when it caused actual confusion. I certainly know that typos happen, but come on. As a consumer, I am really bothered by how often this is an issue in professionally published work. I have gone back and forth on docking a half a star from my overall rating because of how repeatedly frustrated by this I was, but decided not to.

Despite being short stories, this turned into a really long review, because I reviewed each of the 14 stories individually, since my feelings about them were all quite different. I tried (and failed) to keep it short, ha.

“A Promise in Bronze” by Ash Arya
Fantasy (subgenre: historical) (f/f)
3/5

Kalaa, the owner of a food shop, quickly falls for foreigner Mishrakeshi when she comes to the city. The women’s relationship deepens, as Mishri takes a job as an apprentice metalworker, and slowly starts to acclimate to the culture of the city.


My thoughts, spoilers:
This story was cute, but I think kind of suffers for how short it is. We are mostly told how the two feel for each other, when I think it would have been a bit more impactful to see it develop. Maybe hypocritical, as I have multiple oneshot fics I’ve written with the tag “slow burn speed run,” but that was a bit of the vibe here; it wanted the impact of a slow burn growing romance, and we got snapshots of the two of them over a longer stretch of time, but it only had a short wordcount to do it.

I like the conceit of the story. In the end, a bronze figure that Mishri made of Kalaa as a gift is rediscovered thousands of years later as an artifact from an archeological dig, named “The Dancing Girl of Mohenjo Daro,” with the context of the women’s love story entirely unknown.

This is a real artifact, and I assume the inspiration for the story, which I think is neat. However, I think that perhaps instead of that solely being the closing line of the story, it too would have been more impactful with a little bit more context or as a proper framing story. (As it is, you would have to already know or look up the fact that the artifact is real. I had heard of it before, but still looked it up to make sure I wasn’t misremembering.)

There’s also a grammatical error in the very first sentence, which is the very first sentence of the book as a whole, and that kind of started the whole collection off on an iffy note.


“Mama uat-ur” by Z. K. Abraham
Sci-fi/Fantasy (subgenre: post-apocalyptic) (f/f)
3.5/5

Temesghen lives in a Stack; an isolated, concrete building, rising out of the water of the drowned world. These are supposed to be the only safe places left for people to occupy, but life here is tightly and cruelly controlled, the residents forced into long hours of sometimes-dangerous labor. Tamesghen has seen a water-dweller out in the sea surrounding the Stack, and risks severe punishment to sneak down to see her again.


My thoughts, spoilers:
I liked this one. This was a story that did feel suited to its length.

I always enjoy things that are on that sci-fi/fantasy cusp, so a post-apocalyptic setting where the seas have risen to the point that there’s little (if any) habitable land, plus migratory mermaids? Love it.

Temesghen has a fairly straightforward, but strong enough character arc: she wants freedom from the confines of the Stack, which makes sense, as she did have a full and rewarding life before.

The romance between Temesghen and Helena, the waterwoman, is… meh. It’s very much insta-love/love at first sight. While it may be aiming for a bit of a fairy tale vibe with that, the narrative really seems to want you to fully believe they’re meant to be together and in love, but I can’t quite buy into it all the way. There’s certainly an element of Helena representing the freedom that Temesghen is longing for, but I don’t feel like we get enough of a sense of who Helena is as an individual to feel much about her beyond that. Having their apparent romance be the resolution to the plot ended up feeling a bit weak.


“The Birds I Pull” by Sharang Biswas
Fantasy (subgenre: magical realism, contemporary) (m/m)
4/5

The narrator outlines different experiences in his life, by the different birds that come out of his chest based on his feelings.


My thoughts, spoilers:
This story is very short, and ends with a bit of a gut-punch.

It’s hard to say a whole lot about it, because it is so short, but the prose is lovely. The narrator has a pleasantly snarky and slightly rambling voice that I enjoyed.

After being pretty funny in tone, the end is a whiplash to very sad. I suppose it’s open to interpretation just how sad; my reading was that it ends in a death, though I suppose it could be read as just the end of a relationship.


“Sentience” by Nkone Chaka
Sci-fi (nonbinary main character)
3/5

The universe has long benefitted from the presence of the library; a sentient planet that has continually amassed a nearly-endless store of knowledge. Now, after millennia, the library has announced its intention to destroy itself, wanting to end its own existence. Salmik, a researcher, is horrified, and while they intend to go to the library’s grand send-off, they also intend to try and convince the library not to go through with its planned end.


My thoughts, spoilers:
This one is a bit longer.

I started off really liking this one, but wasn’t wowed by the ending.

I very much sympathize with Salmik at the start; to me, the thought of so much collected knowledge all being destroyed (especially as the library will not allow that knowledge to be removed prior to its destruction) is terrible! I have strong feelings about the importance of archival and preservation! So I very much understand their core issue.

At the same time, I have strong feelings about right-to-die as an extension of bodily autonomy. If a sentient being reaches a point where it no longer wishes to exist (and particularly here, where it’s a planet that has had an extraordinarily long existence,) it should have the right to make that decision. (A right that is reiterated as a given in this setting.) So I also sympathize with the library, despite what a loss it will represent.

To me, this was a really enjoyable sort of moral tension, regarding the idea of the rights of an individual vs their value to society as a whole, because those are warring moral feelings for me!

Smaller positive detail: I like the descriptions of the festival that serves as the death-party for the library. It’s celebratory, which I like, even though Salmik hates it.

It was a surprise to me, after Salmik mentions their two visits to the library, paired with their adamance that the library can’t be destroyed, that when we find out the details about those visits… they actually hated the experiences! They felt like the library was malicious, and they came away terrified and didn’t want to return.

But this also leads into their true source of horror and hatred of the library’s decision: their mother’s remains are in the library, as Salmik brought her there to die.

While I understand this personal connection, and it’s an interesting (and potentially unflattering) revelation about the character, to me it cheapened the thing that I best sympathized with and found interesting and engaging! I was so all-in on that tension between “this being has the right to cease existing, and shouldn’t be compelled to stay purely for its value to others” and “but that value is irreplaceable; the information it contains already saved countless lives, and its loss will be incalculable.”

Instead of Salmik’s journey to communicate with the library trying to reconcile those two ideas, it just made it into something else. It was no longer about that sort of individual autonomy vs collective good, now it’s individual autonomy vs “but I want you to give me, personally, something I’m emotionally attached to and feel I have a right to.” It kind of felt like a bait and switch on what I thought was being set up. Sure, I think it’s an easier conflict to morally reconcile, but it’s also not the conflict I wanted to grapple with.

In the end, Salmik leaves dissatisfied and angry, while I thought that the library’s “last gesture” was a bit sweet, if not what Salmik desired.

Another downside was that there were a few passages that I had to read multiple times to make sense of, so I wish a few things had been phrased a bit more clearly. However, it is also possibly “user error”; I was reading this fairly shortly after I was home from the hospital, and it could have been my brain fog at fault.

I really liked the start of this one, but was disappointed in the end feeling much smaller than the start. I wish I’d liked it better.


“The Ng Yut Queen” by Eliza Chan
Fantasy (subgenre: contemporary) (f/f)
3.5/5

Decades ago, Ada prayed to the goddess Guanyin for all kinds of things: to be the May Queen, to have honey-blonde hair… and now the goddess has come to answer her prayers. While Ada does her best to keep the goddess entertained as she visits, she starts to think about what she was really longing for when she made her wishes.


My thoughts, mild spoilers:
This one is quite cute, and I did enjoy it!

The trope of “that thing you wished for, but uncomfortably literal” is always fun. As is introducing a deity to modern life. The goddess just absolutely killing it on social media was great.

Ada and her obvious crush on her friend Lou is also sweet, and I’m glad to see that relationship develop, even just over the length of the short story.

One thing I liked was the use of texts between Ada and Lou, including showing what Ada typed but deleted before sending. It was sweet, and gave us good glimpses into Ada’s thoughts. It was a good blend of showing and telling!

EXCEPT. I’m 99% sure the first text conversation is messed up; partway through the conversation it accidentally switches which of them is speaking, so the texts that are obviously from Lou show up as Ava’s, while Ava’s responses show up as being from Lou. This was VERY confusing as I was reading the early section. I figured it out relatively quickly, but especially at the start before I was well-acquainted with the character voices it threw me off and left me with the wrong impression.

I’m trying not to harsh any story individually for the spelling/grammar/formatting errors, or at least not too much, but in this case it actually changed the understanding of the story in a way that really impacted reading it. If it weren’t for that issue, it would have been an easy 4/5.


“Baobab Lover” by Kwame Sound Daniels
Fantasy (subgenre: contemporary, urban fantasy) (f/nb)
3.5/5

The narrator is a dryad, who came to America from their original tree in Zimbabwe. They work a late shift in a diner, where they meet a necromantic student named Sofia, and slowly begin to get to know each other.


My brief thoughts:
This one was also very cute!

I enjoy the narrator’s voice, and perspective of still being a tree, even as they have a human body.

There’s not a lot of plot: it’s pretty much them getting to know Sofia, but I enjoyed it. It’s quite short, but each little interaction reveals more about the characters in a nice, easy way.


“Braid Me a Howling Tongue” by Maria Dong
Fantasy/horror (subgenre: cult, captivity, monster) (f/f)
4.5/5

Captured, muted, and taken from her tribe, the narrator (eventually nicknamed “Not Do”) is brought to a strange compound full of young women. Here the women are made to work through their days, weaving and cooking for the soldiers in the compound. But there are other rules to their lives there, including days they’re sent to flee and hide throughout the compound, trying to stay away from a monstrous beast that will hunt and kill them. Not Do begins to suspect more about the way the compound works, and she longs to save not only herself, but one of the other girls, Kalen, especially once Kalen seems to become an intentional target.


My thoughts, some spoilers:
This is one of the longer stories, and one of my favorites in the book.

It’s one where information is doled out fairly slowly, but always comes at the right time narratively. Not Do, unable to speak to the other girls because her tongue was cut out, is a fascinating character to be in the perspective of. She’s naturally smart, but she’s forced to be observant because she can’t actually ask about anything. I think this credibly makes it so that she figures out things that none of the other girls have, because she’s sort of forced to.

There’s information that we never fully get, but that’s okay for this story, I think. I’d love to know more about Not Do’s life before (where she was apparently a powerful mage, before her ability to speak was taken away,) and what her tribe was like. I’d also like to know what the deal with the compound actually is. It seems to be some sort of cult, but why? Where did they come from? What is their intention? What is the monster? I’m happy to be left wondering, even as I want to know those answers.


“Eulogy for a Brother, Resurrected” by Carson Faust
Fantasy (subgenre: contemporary, witchcraft)
4/5

After her brother, Callum, is murdered, shot to death by one of his lovers’ wives, Della can’t quite accept that her brother is gone. Della turns to her Auntie Ina, a woman estranged from the family because of her strangeness and possible talent for witchcraft. Auntie Ina is willing to show Della how to bring Callum back… though there’s always a cost.


My thoughts:
This is another one I really liked!

I find I don’t know quite what to say about this one. I like the themes of family and guilt. There’s also a lot about reconnecting: with cultural roots, with someone you never had the chance to be close to, with someone you lost. Those themes and feelings were very strong, and I enjoyed the way they carried through.

It’s also enjoyable because the story feels extremely grounded in a lot of ways (talking about the cost of Callum’s cremation; losing a job due to grief; family dramas) even while the fantastical elements (Auntie Ina’s witchcraft) are present and end up feeling almost equally mundane, as the tone and style of the prose treats it as so matter-of-fact.


“Morning Star Blues” by Tessa Fisher
Sci-fi (f/f, trans main characters)
3.5/5

Kelsey and Ashley are on a mission to Venus, studying it in the hopes of finding evidence of life on the planet. After an unfortunate past event on a different mission, current missions are designed to try and prevent the members from risking any romantic or sexual entanglements; it was assumed that with proper hormonal supplementation, this would not be a risk for Kelsey and Ashley, both trans women. Kelsey finds herself very much falling in love with her crewmate… and they have to decide how much they’re both willing to risk.


My thoughts, spoilers:
This was cute!

I feel like I don’t have much to say about it, except that it was very cute. I appreciated that the women (mainly Kelsey, who is our narrator) have their scientific goals in mind as well. While the story arc is very much about their relationship, and the science they’re out there to do really is mostly background, I’m happy that it’s there.
The bit about them singing together was extremely sweet.

There is some seriousness lurking. There’s the fear of being found out, the fear of consequence, and the fear of a past event (that neither of them had anything to do with) reflecting poorly on them now. (Particularly poignant but unfair, as it’s a trans woman fearing that her love for another trans woman would be treated the same way a cis man assaulting a woman would be.) As such, most of the real conflict winds up being internal. (I’ll spoil that while much of that fear is externally imposed, and there is a genuine reason for worry, it all works out okay in the end.)

Overall a fairly light and sweet story.


“Parásito” by Ana Hurtado
Horror/sci-fi (subgenre: parasite) (implied f/f)
4/5

On a field trip into the rainforest, Emi eats an ant, and feels something strange slide down her throat. Back at the university, Emi discovers that Professor Torres has been trying to coerce her best friend, Irene, into a relationship with him. When the university refuses to take his behavior seriously, and with Irene fearing for her grade, Emi wants to find a way to help her… even as her own health begins to decline.


My thoughts, minor spoilers:
I enjoyed this one!

I don’t think it’s subtle that it’s up to you whether the title refers to the literal parasite that infects Emi, or the professor who makes it a habit of preying on his female students.

There’s a good sense of slow-growing dread about what we know is happening to Emi, as well as a less-slow growing anger about Torres, and how obviously this is not an isolated incident, but something he’s been enabled to do for far too long. The end isn’t fully happy, per se, but certainly has an element of satisfaction.

This one is one that I’d say feels the least queer of the stories that are included. It feels like Emi may have romantic feelings for Irene, but it’s a bit ambiguous.


“Mandy and Lulu Welcome Walter” by S. M. Hallow
4.5/5
Fantasy (f/f)

Vampires Mandy and Lulu are happily settling in to their eternity together… until Lulu brings home a cat. According to Lulu, Walter has spent all of his lives so far with her, and Mandy’s dislike of cats certainly can’t apply to her beloved Walter, who may be onto his ninth and final life.


My thoughts:
This story was a lot of fun.

Mandy’s narration is nearly Valley-girl ish, and was entertaining to read. (I read it aloud, just because it was fun to.) It’s very much like you’re listening to a friend spill some tea.

This one is very short, but has a really fun conceit that suits the length perfectly. Much longer, the conversational style probably would stop being so enjoyable, and the plot of being won over by your lover’s cat wouldn’t have sustained any real interest. However, I like the hints about Lulu’s time with Walter’s previous lives, which gives a sense of an equally improbable and entertaining history.


“Three Nights in Orissa” by Sean Robinson
4/5
Fantasy (subgenre: high fantasy) (m/m)

Orrin is a fairly new king, having to face down Althair—the Red Queen—a conqueror who has brought her army his city, after having swept over everything else in her path. He has enough magic to hold her back… for a time. As he tries to fight to protect his city during the days of the Red Queen’s siege, by night he tries to comfort the citizenry, before holing up in a tavern where he endeavors to be anonymous. Here he meets and is drawn to Jerrod, a stranger to the city. He knows it won’t be long until he is unable to hold off the invading force, yet feels compelled to spend what time he can with Jerrod, showing him the city he loves.


My thoughts, at least one big spoiler:
The high fantasy setting of this one was enjoyable. It also feels very much like there’s a broader story, and we’re just seeing a few days out of it, but that there was plenty that led up to it, and plenty that will continue after.

I also really liked the complicated generational conflict that we get to see glimpses of. Orrin’s mother, Vast, was apparently a great queen… but a vicious one. Initially it seems like she’s being spoken of admiringly, but it also seems that her “strength” is why they’re in the situation they’re in; the city once had both a unicorn and a phoenix as guardians that would have protected them. Both fled the city because of her cruelty.

Big spoiler: Jerrod ends up being the unicorn, which I did really like. He is also Althair’s general.

On the downside, I thought it was obvious that like Jerrod was the unicorn, that Althair was the phoenix… but that’s never actually confirmed or even suspected by Orrin. I wanted there to be a reckoning with that! I wanted him to have to truly face that both the city’s guardians were now trying to overthrow it! It’s not terrible for this to be something that the reader simply has to suspect and deal with, but it was something I wanted to see matter on-page, especially with the way the story ends!


“Please Mind the Poltergeist” by Tehnuka
3.5/5
Fantasy/horror (subgenre: supernatural) (f/f?)

When Vani’s friend Miriam goes on a long-term field assignment, Vani jumps at the chance to housesit for her. She’s eager to get out of her parents’ house, where she’s been stuck as she contends with a chronic illness that limits what she can do. She’s already been warned that it’s more ghost-sitting than house-sitting; the resident poltergeist likes to throw things, move the furniture, clog the drains, and more. As Vani is forced to continue dealing with her illness, she and the ghost begin to make peace, eventually finding companionship with each other.


My thoughts, spoilers:

This story is quite sweet, and I like the way that chronic illness is compared to the idea of a haunting, connecting both to the mourning for a life that can’t be regained, and a sense of being trapped and handling loss. It’s a much more compassionate comparison than the more common ways I see horror use illness and the paranormal to amplify each other.

On the other hand… this whole thing really just felt like this comic by charminglyantiquated. It’s not completely one to one the same; the chronic illness aspect is not in the original comic, and this story doesn’t start with the life or death stakes of the comic. However, the plot beats are extremely similar, as human and entity go through the arc of antagonism to grudging truce and tolerance to helpfulness to potentially being in love. Even some of the specific details, like writing on the mirrors and sharing cups of cocoa, are the same.

Now, some of that could very well be that those are perfectly common enemies-to-lovers plot beats, and something like writing in the steam on a mirror is pretty bog-standard poltergeist fare. I’m sorry if it turns out that this author did not ever actually see or read that comic, but it felt extremely similar to me the whole time. I would probably give it a 4/5, except that it felt so too-similar to something I’d already read and loved.


“A Record of Lost Time” by Regina Kanyu Wang, translated by Rebecca F. Kuang
5/5
Sci-fi (background f/f)

In the nearish future, a rare element discovery leads to a piece of revolutionary new technology: FastForward. This brain implant allows its users to speed up their processing and perception of the world, functionally living their lives at a higher speed, making everything else appear to be moving in slow motion. The boost in productivity that it affords makes it incredibly appealing, and more and more people choose to adopt the new technology.
An influencer, a percussion player, a corporate consultant, and a tourism guide share their experiences with the tech, now that FastForward has become omnipresent, as an initially unknown side-effect speeds the world toward its end.


My thoughts, spoilers:
We closed out on my favorite of the lot!

This one is very Black Mirror, and another example of a story that I think was perfectly suited to its length.

I like the different perspectives that we get from the different characters, and how FastForward impacted them individually.

It’s full of obvious capitalistic warnings. How far will people go in the name of productivity? In the name of having more time? But beyond that, I appreciate that the ultimate point (or one of them) is that the choice inherently impacts everyone else. It’s more than just opting in or out for yourself; the more widespread the adoption, the more it impacts the world around it, even for those who never chose to use it themselves. At the extreme, this is speeding up the passage of time toward the ultimate end of the world.

I can certainly choose to read a lot of allegory into it, when it comes to things like widespread AI use, which negatively impacts the environment (and arguably the culture) as a whole, and the consequences can’t be avoided even by those who actively would prefer to avoid it.
You could also compare it to surveillance: you may choose not to opt in to apps that want to film you and track you, you may choose not to opt in to meta glasses that record everything you’re doing and looking at, you may choose not to opt in to a doorbell camera that tracks everyone and everything in range… but that doesn’t opt you out of everyone else’s recordings that may include you.
Or social conditioning: you can do your best to avoid toxic attitudes, but when you’re steeped in them, you can’t escape their impact.

There’s real pressure to join: in the story, opting in to FastForward is the only way to slow down the end of the world to your own perspective, to give yourself more subjective time… yet the more people who get the implant, the faster it approaches.

This one was great, and I was glad for it to be the one the book closed out on.


Overall, this was a good collection! While some of the stories definitely felt stronger to me than others, even the ones that I didn’t love had aspects that I liked. A couple of them will probably stick with me, and I hope to see more from some of these authors in the future.


(The monstrous dog approaches!)
The Sun Dog by Stephen King
1990
Horror (subgenre: supernatural, artifact) - physical novella - read with Alex
3.5/5

Kevin Delevan gets exactly what he wanted for his fifteenth birthday: a Polaroid Sun 660 camera. Eater to try it out, he takes a picture… but instead of printing out a picture of his family, what develops is an image of an unrecognized street and a strange dog. Subsequent pictures seem to show the same scene, until it becomes obvious that the more pictures taken, the closer the dog is getting, and it is clearly preparing to attack. Kevin is certain that the camera must be destroyed, in order to stop the evil, monstrous dog’s approach.
Junk and antique store owner and local loan shark “Pop” Merrill has always been willing to ruthlessly pursue a chance to make money. He sees an excellent opportunity in Kevin’s Polaroid, even as he willingly disregards the danger it represents.


My thoughts, some spoilers:

I enjoyed this story. I do like horror stories that are of the “hey, wouldn’t it be fucked up if..?” variety. Why does the camera do that? What world is the camera ‘looking’ in on? Where is the dog from and why does it exist? Who cares! It’s just fucked up!

The characters feel… maybe slightly stock, but they’re good examples of the stock they are. Kevin is the sort of innocent that shows up in a lot of King’s work, and in other horror of this kind. He so obviously doesn’t deserve to be stuck in the middle of all that’s happening, and is merely a victim of being the one who got the strange camera; it could have been anyone. (Well… theoretically. Given the end, maybe he just needs to avoid technology forever.) On the other side, we have Pop, who is a garbage person who is aware that he’s awful (but thinks everyone else deserves it) and is perfectly happy to be awful as long as it benefits him in some way. They’re obvious foils, but it works.

It’s also nicely set in its time period. Polaroids and newfangled VCRs! Fun vibes. I like how this could be a “fear of technology” story, but with older tech. The setting certainly isn’t surprising for King, as frequently there’s a lot of warped nostalgia informing his settings, but I liked it.

Much of the horror is great (again, love the ‘oh, it’s just fucked up’), and there’s a definite sense of building dread, as the dog gets closer and closer. It does a good job of starting as a fairly vague menace, and then building up just how threatening it is.

However, this story did the same thing that I started to be annoyed by in Duma Key, where it’s so heavy-handed with the foreshadowing that it actually sort of removes the tension. It wasn’t quite the same thing this time, but it accomplished the same end for me. In Duma Key it tended towards statements that boiled down to “little did I know it would be the last time I’d see her alive,” therefore killing any tension regarding the character’s fate. In The Sun Dog, it was more that the characters would repeatedly mention that they noticed something, but then refuse to say what. Sometimes this would drag on for multiple chapters. “Kevin had noticed the thing around the dog’s neck, and was terrified by it.” “Pop hadn’t noticed the thing around the dog’s neck, but now that Kevin pointed it out, he wondered how he hadn’t seen it.” “Kevin drew his father’s attention to the thing around the dog’s neck, and it filled him with dread at what it meant.” Then, several chapters later, we find out what the thing was. It didn’t feel at all natural for the characters to take notice of it but to obscure what it was, to refuse to name it, especially multiple characters deliberately avoiding it in the same way. It made me very aware that I was reading a story and that it was trying to manipulate me to make me desperate to find out what “it” was… but instead it just made me kind of resentful at the attempt, and then by the time the thing was revealed I was just annoyed, haha.

To be fair, we read this over a couple of months (we read for about twenty minutes at a time on nights when Alex is cooking.) It might not have felt so dragged out if we were reading it more quickly. But still… even if we’d read those chapters closer to each other, this particular example would still have stretched on too long.

This was also a pretty decent “The end… OR IS IT” type ending, so appreciate that.



Hell Bent by Leigh Bardugo
(I love these covers.
When Taylor gave me this book for Christmas, they also gave me a copy of What Moves the Dead, so remarked on the "if I had a nickel for every fucked up rabbit on the cover of a book I'm giving you...")
Book 2 of the Alex Stern trilogy
2023
Fantasy/Horror (subgenres: dark, dark academia, supernatural, demonic) - (m/f) - physical novel
5/5

Alex Stern has managed to stay at Yale, and as a representative of Lethe. However, her position might not last for long, as Lethe’s new leadership takes a very dim view of her doing anything beyond the most basic requirements of her role in managing the other houses’ rituals. This especially applies to any of her attempts to reach and free Darlington from where his soul is trapped in Hell. Alex, of course, has no intention to obey, and every intention of saving him.
Her role is also tested as a string of murders start on campus; murders that have an apparently supernatural component to them.
Alex and Dawes research a supposed ritual to enter Hell, the steps of which are hidden on campus, though the previous attempt to use it seems to have ended poorly. Opening the gates of Hell doesn’t only create an entrance, but also an exit.


My thoughts, some spoilers:

As is often the case with trilogies, I think I like the first book, Ninth House, slightly more, if only because it stands better on its own. Even so, Hell Bent gets five stars from me, and I really enjoyed it.

I would say that this book treads closer to truly falling within the horror genre than Ninth House did. That one had horror elements, for sure, but always felt more like a dark fantasy than true horror. Hell Bent is more a mix between fantasy and horror, focusing a lot more on demonic monstrosity.

The worldbuilding and setting are still very strong. I love the way it blends the real-world setting and the fictionalized aspects of the world. It also still does a good job, I think, of treading the line between “magic can solve it” and “but is it worth it?” The magic can do a lot… but it’s very rarely convenient or easy.

I liked getting more page time with some of the characters who were introduced in the previous book: Dawes, Turner, Tripp, Mercy, Darlington. It’s interesting to see the different backgrounds they all have, and how it’s brought them to the same place, and the ways in which they have similar drives within them, but are very different people.

One of the primary themes, which was present in the first book, but gets ramped up in this one, is the deep desire to find and be a part of something magical or secret. That’s one of the driving motivations for several of the characters: that secret desire to find another world behind the back of a wardrobe, or to discover a hidden magic that’s always been a part of you. Even just the desire to know that there’s something “more” to the world. I think a lot of fantasy fans can relate to that! These books have done a great job of showing the tension between that desire, and the ugly reality of what that secret world actually entails (at least in this story.) There is a secret world of magic… and the quest for the power it can bestow leads to the same sorts of evils that accumulating mundane social or political power leads to, just magnified and sometimes a bit more literal. It’s also often clustered in the same hands as that mundane power.

Sort of along with that, while these books would fall under the “dark academia” subgenre, and I think are in a lot of ways excellent examples of it, I also think that they’re being pretty critical of that aesthetic and what it would truly look like. It does focus a lot on what types of people (again, connecting to the real-world setting of secret societies at prestigious universities) would accumulate power and what they would use it for. There’s a lot of disgust at the rituals and what the intentions behind them are. It also doesn’t shy away from some really horrible aspects of real history, including the history of slavery in the region, and ways in which those structures of power and exploitation have stayed the same. (And I do not think that those real horrors are being downplayed by their inclusion in a work of fantasy fiction.)

I also, perhaps regrettably, am into the whole Alex/Darlington dynamic. Fucked up supernaturally compelled not-quite-romantic-or-sexual-yet-but-it’s-something femdom apparently works for me. -_-

While I don’t think that the twists in this one were quite as good as the ones at the end of Ninth House, I think they were still pretty good. It was clear that someone was leading them on, and getting the reveals about who/what/how/why was satisfying; the way in which Alex was able to help Darlington; going back with a better understanding later of the meeting between Alex and [redacted] and what was actually going on… all good stuff.

I really have very few complaints. I sort of missed getting to actually see the other societies this time around. They’re on the periphery, and we get told about some of their rituals, but don’t really get to see any. There’s pretty little of them directly on-page, and that was a bit of a shame. At the same time, I wouldn’t have wanted them to be included just to be included, and derail or distract from the plot we were focused on.

I am looking forward to the third book, coming out in September!



(These also have fantastic covers. Very creepy, love them.)
What Stalks the Deep by T. Kingfisher
Book 3 of the Sworn Soldier series
2025
Horror (subgenre: monster) - (background m/m) - physical novella
4.5/5

Alex Easton would be perfectly happy to leave any and all supernatural or unexplained happenings to other people to deal with. When Denton, the American doctor who helped with the situation with the Ushers, writes to kan* with an issue of his own, kan still feels compelled to help. If anyone understands what it was to face an unknown horror, it would be Denton. He’s asked for Alex’s help finding his cousin, who disappeared while investigating the family’s mine in West Virginia. The cousin’s letters to Denton described strange occurrences around the mine—strange lights, sounds, and figures being sighted—but then finally the discovery of a breathtaking cavern full of some unknown material. Alex travels to America to help him investigate. Their party soon discovers all the same things Denton’s cousin warned about, as well as unexplainable attacks on animals and people in the area. Whatever is in the mine seems to be more than just an animal or a human intruder.

*Alex’s native language has many sets of pronouns, including ka/kan, used exclusively for soldiers, which supersede any previous pronouns an individual might have used.


My thoughts, some spoilers:

I enjoyed this one! While I still enjoyed the second book, this one felt like more of a return to some of what I liked best about the first book.

Mild spoiler for both this book and the first, but I liked that this story returned to being about a sort of scientific/cryptid creature, as opposed to the more overtly paranormal folkloric monster of the second book. I like both types of creature, but the “vaguely scientific (even if it strays into pretty speculative biology,) simply unknown to science” cryptid sort is one I encounter less often. I think the one in the first book was more horrific, but I appreciate their similarities, and the way in which this one gets a different outcome.

I still like Alex’s sort of deadpan reactions to the world. Ka does not want to deal with emotional anything, and will go to great lengths to avoid it. Watching ka repeatedly notice Denton and Ingold’s relationship and then resolutely refuse to acknowledge it as none of kan business was entertaining.

The setting is fantastic! I love me some spooky abandoned mines, and this was an excellent one. (There are some similarities to the famous Ted the Caver creepypasta, which I mean as a compliment. The mingled awe of discovering some amazing unknown thing and the claustrophobic and isolated horror of being trapped underground is great!)

There are also two parallel mysteries: what’s happening in the mine, and what’s happening with the animal attacks in the nearby town. Those came together satisfyingly!

Really no complaints about this one.


Pretty lucky this month in terms of enjoying everything I read again!



Despite being a ways into March at this point, I have not finished anything additional.

I am currently reading four books:
- Point of Dreams by Melissa Scott and Lisa A. Barnett (my current main read, part of the Pride storybundle)
- Our Bloody Pearl by D. N. Bryn (my current ebook side-read, which has been slow going)
- The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling (reading with Alex)
- Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir (reading with Taylor)

After this, my plan remains pretty much the same:
- The Hobbit
- The Map and the Territory (Pride storybundle ebook)
- The Fellowship of the Ring
- These Fragile Graces, This Fugitive Heart (Pride storybundle ebook)
- The Two Towers
- Be the Sea (Pride storybundle ebook)
- Return of the King
- The next Incryptid book (coming out the day before my birthday), Butterfly Effects, will get to jump the line. It’ll probably land after The Hobbit.
- When I am done with my current ebook side read, I will probably let the Game Changer series (or at least the first three books, which I own) jump the line to side-read status.

It’s fairly clear that I will not be finishing up the above by the end of March, which was my original, admittedly ambitious goal. I am holding out hope for it to happen by the end of April, but that still seems a bit on the ambitious side. I’ve been doing more reading, spending more time per day on Point of Dreams, but it turns out that it’s a relatively long book, ha. And of course all the Tolkien books are long and not quick reads by any stretch, and I do not want to rush them.

Upsettingly, the TBR has now grown to an obscene 676 books.

This is partially due to another horror ebook humble bundle (Dread and Darkness) that I purchased, which includes 52 books. Four of those I already had (some of the Stephen Graham Jones titles,) but there were a few others (other Stephen Graham Jones titles,) that were already on my wishlist, so I failed to resist. The rest of the increase has mostly been due to cheap sales on individual books.

Happy belated birthday to Alex!

Mar. 6th, 2026 05:59 pm
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Yesterday was Alex's birthday!

It was fairly low-key.

We went to the aquarium on Tuesday as an early celebration, which was very fun. (I need to sort through the pictures.)

Last night we got Indian food takeout for dinner, which was delicious.

(Now to figure out what to do for my birthday next week, haha.

Maybe the zoo and more Indian food.)




Today we got our first real snow in... quite a while. 30-some days. This is only the third or fourth time it's snowed at all this season, and this is definitely the most we've gotten.

I hate-hate-hate the cold and snow, and have loved having almost every day remain warm and sunny. However... yes, the lack of moisture is Deeply Concerning, so this is good. I'm hoping that we wind up with more rain this spring, to help stave off the drought.

Writing Goals/Calendar: March 2026

Mar. 4th, 2026 08:12 pm
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Well… here we are, another month down… and not so much in the way of writing to show for it.

The year got off to a rough start. I had started the year a bit aimlessly, not really sure what I wanted to do beyond just trying to plod forward through the plan I’d already created for myself. My inspiration was a little low, but I really wanted to find and recapture some of the “spark” in terms of creative writing. Getting through some of the outlining seemed like the biggest necessity: trying to get some ideas down in enough detail that I’ll be able in the future to jump back into those projects without lamenting that I’ve forgotten too much about them. Also, pushing through the slightly boring outlining seems like a good idea for what to do when I’m not feeling super excited. At least in theory, once I do feel a bit more inspired, then I’ll be able to turn to the actual writing, with all the prep work out of the way.

I wasn’t off to a swimming start in January, but I’d started to at least poke at a few things. Then my appendix died and tried to take me with it, and that pretty much destroyed the rest of January.

Tragically, both January and early February were also marred by grief. Two dear friends of mine, one an in-person friend from the goth scene, and one an online fandom friend here, both passed away. Both were people who were extremely creative in their own ways, whether that was writing music or writing fic. I miss them both terribly.

Still, I had tiny, small hopes that February would get better. Even as it got closer to mid-month, I wasn’t managing much, but I did at least start to feel a bit more interested in the idea of writing, which was an improvement!

And then I got smacked down by a pretty nasty cold (I don’t think it was flu, but it sucked.) That knocked me out for about a week or ten days, and then has lingered. While I should be mostly healed from the appendectomy, I think the illness set me back a little bit. I'm just now getting to about 90% better from the cold, and so I'm hoping I'm getting closer to healthy again.

My goals for February were to:
- Resume working on my WIP outline

…That’s it.

How did that go?

It did not!

I did not work on my WIP at all in February. :(

I did write some, but it was non-fiction writing, mostly writing up reviews of books I read, though I didn’t do as much reading as I’d hoped to, either!

The back to back suck of the first couple months of the year really did pretty much kick my ass. This is partially just an excuse: if I was feeling super excited and motivated, I probably would have pushed through to do more. In the absence of that enthusiasm, I didn’t have it in me to push through the illness and the sadness.

So, uh… maybe this month?

My goals for March:
- Reorient myself in the WIP outline (at this point, it’s been sitting there for a couple months, and I will need to reread the pieces I have to remember where I needed to go from there.)
- Work on the WIP outline (even if it’s just a little bit! I won’t even try to pretend I’m trying to finish it this month! I just want to work on it a little bit!)

I’ve started feeling… ‘wistful’ might be the best word. And a bit restless. I usually refer to it myself as the “biannual transitional season wanderlust.” (I do get it most years during the spring season change and the autumn season change.) It’s a sort of aimless feeling, like I really am longing for… something. I don’t know what it is, but I wish I could attain it! One aspect of it is the desire to do something creative, but sadly it rarely comes with any specific inspiration or idea on what creative thing I want to do. Just… something. It also makes me feel really wistful and nostalgic, ha. Or like I want to pack up and move.

That to say, I do hope that I can turn it to some actual work on the outline.

Although I am again bumping into the time management struggle, and the “what do I put my free time toward” question. I have got to get more reading done, because at this pace, I’ve got some twelve+ years worth of reading on my TBR and I am just not okay with that!
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The protocol for entering the palace changes from time to time, so I can only offer a general outline. If your business is with the court or council, you should present yourself and your credentials to the guards at the southern gate of the outer wall of the palace. It is best to arrange beforehand for your visit. If this not possible, or if you cannot provide an exact time for your arrival, expect to wait as your credentials are sent into the palace to be checked.

Normally, you will be provided with an escort into the palace. If you arrive at a time before the palace begins its day, you will be expected to make your own way to the eastern gate of the inner wall. There your credentials will be inspected again, along with any document that the palace has sent out, permitting your entrance. You will then be allowed to enter the inner wall and make your approach to the palace itself.

The palace being located atop a high hill, you will find yourself faced with the steepest and longest set of stairs in the world. Pace yourself. You may wish to bring refreshments to partake of at the halfway mark.

At the top of the stairs, once you have recovered your breath, you should show your credentials and palace document to the guards at the gate, holding them up for inspection. The guards may not appear to look at you or even notice you. Do not be deceived. Those are real spears they are holding across the doorway.

If the guards grant you entrance, they will lift the spears. If they do not, you must retreat to the palace's inner wall and determine there what the problem is.

Assuming you manage to pass all these barriers, you will find yourself in the entryway to the palace. You will be guided at this point through the remaining stages of reception, which vary according to your rank and status. At some point, however, you will be let loose from Emor's protocol and permitted to take your own path. Let us start with a general introduction to the Chara's palace.


[Translator's note: This breathtakingly long procedure can be cut short if you possess the right credentials, as can be seen in Breached Boundaries.]

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The reason that Alex and I went to the Denver Botanic Gardens was to see one of their temporary exhibits, which was their orchid showcase. Luckily we managed to make it on the final day!

Not a lot of commentary for me, mostly just pictures, ha. So many orchids! Lots of the "usual" ones that are the most commercially available, but a lot of less-common colors and kinds as well. I love them all!


A wall of different kinds!


The star shape of this kind is one of my favorites, and I do love the colors.


17 more orchid pictures:


Speckles.


I like the darker color of these.


Very large!


These are such a cool shape!


I like the contrast between the flowers on the left and the more "slipper" shaped one on the right.


The little ones are neat. Little sprays of stars.


The pale yellow is such a smooth color.


Jailed for crimes.


Spectacular in a group.


Nice color and shape.


A classic fave.


Another nice, soft color. They look a bit like lilies.


I love the star shapes.


Really cool vibrant veining.


Really like how different they are from each other!


Nice pattern.


I love these colors.


I'm very glad we were able to go before the exhibit closed! It was a perfect day to go.

Spring in the north

Mar. 3rd, 2026 11:38 am
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 Spring is certainly already here—when I got on the bus this morning, the entire front window upstairs was covered in a thick sheet of ice, from melting snow hitting the window and freezing again, as temps were just under freezing.
 
icy windows
 
However, by the time we were in Umeå, and hour and a half later, the temps were above freezing, and the action of the windshield wipers had taken away all of the slush so I could see out the window again.

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Some koi this week! (Though we saw koi the previous week at the gardens.)

This week was all right. Not too thrilled about it ending in my country starting another global crisis. The days that Alex's knee was non-functional were not great, though while it now still hurts pretty badly, it's at least movable again. I managed to get a few productive things done, though not everything I'd intended to. I did do better on my reading, even though it's still slower than I wish it was. Still no fiction writing. Work went pretty well all week.

Goals for the week:

  • I did finish reading Hell Bent
  • I read and finished What Stalks the Deep
  • I called the hospital about my issues paying
  • I called my doctor's office to reschedule my appointment
  • I called Nielson to come pick up their equipment
  • I did not work on my reading page
  • I did not work on my WIP
  • I did not finish writing/post my February book reviews
  • I did not go get crickets
  • I did not clean the frog and toad ponds
  • I did put my laundry away
  • I took all the ornaments off our Christmas trees, lol
  • I set up a new small notebook (the one I take to work and such)

Tracked habits:

  • Work - 5/7
  • Household Maintenance - 4/7
  • Physical Activity - 3/7
  • Wrote 500/1000+ Words - 0/7
  • Non-fiction Writing - 2/7 - both over 500 words
  • Meta Work - 4/7
  • Personal Writing - 5/7
  • Other Creative Things - 0/7
  • Reading - 7/7 - I finished Hell Bent, read What Stalks the Deep, and some of my ebook side-read
  • Attention to Media - 7/7 - Sunday watched news coverage and game videos; Monday through Wednesday watched game videos; Thursday watched some explore videos; Friday and Saturday had various youtube stuff in the background.
  • Video Games - 0/7
  • Social Interaction - 5/7

Total words written: 1366 on reviews

A new banner started

Mar. 2nd, 2026 09:41 pm
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 After work today we started a banner for Camp Northern Lights. We already have the entrance banner, which says "Camp Northern Lights, Everyone Always Welcome", and this time Keldor wanted to communicate that without any text. This might do it: A Sea Reindeer, sharing a drink with a Unicorn, followed by a trumpet-playing rabbit serenading a dragon, with the help of a bagpipe playing cat, followed by a flaming fox-duck chasing a snail, wearing a sombrero. The Unicorn's rainbow tail will continue behind the rest of the creatures, and, overhead, a dark blue sky with Northern Lights. It will be interesting to see if we can pull this off.

Banner sketch

fighter training and travel booking

Mar. 1st, 2026 09:24 pm
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 I started a new project this morning. I am sewing myself some yoga blocks. Yes, this is a sewing project!
 
I didn’t have yoga blocks when living with David, so we cut a couple of pieces of thick wood that, while no where near as thick as a normal yoga block, was better than nothing. This morning I did a strength and flexibility hip stretching video that suggested holding a yoga block between the knees and squeezing hard. I cannot recommend doing this with a solid block of wood instead of a yoga block.
 
So I decided to take some of the adhesive foam Keldor has and add padding to the sides of the blocks, which made them as thick as a yoga block.
 
 yoga block


side view
 
But that texture wouldn’t be pleasant to touch, so I took some of the scrap leather from the couch that came with the couch and cover the blocks. This adds some stability to the foam, but I could see that they wouldn’t stand well on end, so I cut even more foam for the ends, and that seems to help, though now they are longer than a traditional yoga block.
 
in progress
 
I managed to get that project well started before Aeirin arrived, and then made some good progress sewing on it while we talked and before armouring up. My first time in armour in weeks!
 
We took Aeirin’s armour home after Coronet two weeks ago, as she was travelling by train, and while it is possible to take the armour that way, it isn’t pleasant. We had planed to do a fighter practice last weekend weekend she came to pick it up, but she came down with a cold, so we rescheduled to today.
 
I learned that yes, my armour would have been ok to fight in the tournament, while it has plenty of problems that need upgrading for comfort, there are no broken bits that would have failed inspection.
 
I learned that when I feel stressed and afraid the my opponent might hit me I forget everything I know about stance and footwork, and lean away from them.
 
I learned that I really need more time in armour for conditioning training. I was the first of us to give up, with the (true) excuse that I was super hungry, but I was also just plain out of energy.
 
Now I am (over) fed and should go pack my armour, which is scattered all over the entry area, and not nicely in its box.
 
Hours later… I have attended Nordmark’s annual meeting over zoom, updated my food logs, and just as I was about to leave the computer, Keldor said, “let’s look at flights to Strawberry Raid”, and then bought us tickets, with a week before the event there, where we will (hopefully, if the timing still works for her), visit Tania and Mike. So now I have updated the calendar with all of the flights, and updated my financial records for the bookings, an now I really will go pack that armour and get ready for bed…
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Bella got to go to another FastCAT today! (I wish I'd been there instead of dealing with a class close, but alas.)


The runner!


SHE DID SO GOOD!!

Those are her best times ever! She broke 10 seconds, which was what I've been hoping for! And the second run was barely over the 10 second mark. I'm so proud, haha. (As Alex said, this is also a little bit of vindication for the previous one down in Colorado Springs. He thought she was under 10 seconds, but the timer malfunctioned and didn't record her time, so she had to redo the run.)

Apparently a lot of people said their dogs were having a good day today. The ground was very level, and while it was a grass track, the grass was obviously dead and very short, so it was really good footing.

I'm so delighted that she did so well, and had such a great pair of runs.

This does get her the DCAT designation, which is the intermediate AKC title for FastCAT, though she'll get her fancy ribbon sometime next month when the point totals from today are officially tallied.


Looking a little more tired after all that effort.

Not the adventure we had hoped for

Feb. 28th, 2026 11:02 pm
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 We slept in this morning. I woke a bit before 07:00 to pee, and grabbed a small clementine to eat with my morning vitamin, and went right back to bed and slept for another hour, by which time my hips were aching, so I got up and did some pliaties.
 
We played a game of Qwirkle over breakfast, and Keldor proposed a plan for the day. He wanted to head to Umeå and pick up some fish for his aquarium, and whilst there we could do other errands. Second hand store, swing by my office to print a few thing, stock up on stuff at the grocery store. It was a good plan.
 
We left the house just after 12:30, a bright sunny day, with temperatures at + 3C, the first day this calendar year above freezing, but the new snow we had this week meant that it was a beautiful drive.
 
An hour later we approaced the roundabout at the north end of the city, discussing which order made the most sense. University first, or second had store first. 
 
The car choose for us. It entered the roundabout, must have liked it, because we heard a loud clunking noise from the engine, and the car ceased its forward momentum. Keldor was able to pull right up to the centre of the roundabout before he lost the last of the glide. 
 
From these symptoms, we assume we no longer have a functioning drive shaft, so I went through the insurance web page and ordered a tow truck, and we waited as traffic circled around us.
 
One car driving by paused to ask if we needed help. That was nice of them. Eventually the tow truck cane and took the car to the shop, and a taxi took us to the University, but with only enough time to drop off a couple of things to leave in the office and use the loo before heading to the bus stop. I considered trying to do the printing, but decided I didn't want to risk missing the bus, as the next wouldn't be there for another hour.
 
So, no errands for us today. The shop isn't open till Monday, so I won't know anything about prognosis before then. 
 
The project I took with me is a bit of mending, fixing sleeves on my blue sweater with the worn out cuffs, using 3 nålbindning stitches to one cuff rib. 

starting sleeve mending
 
Between stitching as we travelled and then curling up on the couch at home, I managed to finish one cuff, and make a good start on the next.

cuff
 
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Before I lead you into the palace (figuratively speaking), I need to emphasize the importance of good behavior.

Bad behavior can get you killed anywhere in the Three Lands, but in the Chara's palace it is also likely to get you tortured for days. This is because the highest penalty for crimes committed in the Chara's palace is death by torture - the so-called "Slave's Death." Although the previous Chara ordered the release of the empire's slaves, bringing to an end the torture of every palace slave condemned to death, traitors are still liable to this penalty.

The definition of "traitor" can be quite broad in the Chara's palace. I recommend that you not test its boundaries.

Some specific advice:

Be on your best behavior. Dress well, and learn the rules of courtesy toward Emorian noblemen and palace officials. When in doubt, bow. Address everyone you meet, whatever his age, as "sir" or by his title. You need not address the Chara by his full title, which is quite long; just "Chara" will do.

The wearing of arms is permitted by law in the Chara's palace if it is your custom in your homeland. However, if you choose to wear arms, you will find that every guard in the palace will leap upon you the moment you take the wrong turn in your path. Your life will be easier if you set aside your weapons during your visit. You are in no danger of being attacked yourself; the Chara's palace is the most heavily guarded building in the world, and visitors are free recipients of that guarding.

Also, be aware that the wearing of hidden weapons in the palace is considered a crime of treachery. Even I don't try to do this, unless I have made prior arrangements with the Chara.


[Translator's note: The Slave's Death is a tender topic for the Ambassador. Just why is explained in Blood Vow.]

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With everything that's been going on this year so far, we haven't had many chances to get out and do much.

One of the things that we'd wanted to do was visit one of the temporary exhibits at the Denver Botanic Gardens: their orchid showcase. Then my appendix tried to kill me, and we both pretty much entirely forgot about it. At some point in the second week of February Alex remembered and suggested we try to go sometime, so I looked it up to check how long the exhibit was running... to discover it was only going through Monday the 16th. That narrowed down our options a bit, but luckily we were both feeling well enough to go, and the decidedly un-winter-like weather continued to cooperate with us.

And it was lovely! The orchids were mostly in the "orangery," a stretch of semi-indoor/semi-open space that looks in on the greenhouses and has some citrus trees and such year-round. We spent most of our time there and in the big conservatory, though we did take a walk around the rest of the gardens as well.

The pictures in this post are primarily not of the orchids, and the orchids will get their own post.


We did get to see the koi, which are always a favorite!


The view when you walk in to the main building.

Here you obviously can see a lot of orchids on display around the water feature. (I'm fond of the ones in the tentacle-y hanging pots.)


Nineteen more pictures from the gardens:


There was also some decoration for Lunar New Year.

We went into the conservatory, which I always love walking around. Give me all the indoor rainforest.


So many pods on the cocoa tree!


A cute hidden spray of flowers.


I am very charmed by these leaves that all but vacuum seal themselves to the tree they're growing on. They look like little scales.


Dart frog!


These little flowers were pretty and cute, and on closer inspection, each little flower had a teeny tiny ant on it! The image does not really convey how TINY these little ants were. Smaller than typical little black sugar ants. TINY. Getting little nectar drinks.


I think insects are cute, so this ant taking a step from one flower to another was extremely adorable, imo.


An interesting flower.

After this, it was down to the orangery.

The Denver Botanic Gardens has a very extensive bonsai collection, which is very cool. Most of them are off-display for the season (and will be outside for the summer.)


This one is on display inside, so it can be seen blooming. A bougainvillea! (Been in training as a bonsai for over 25 years, now!)


Carnivorous plant terrariums, my beloved. A Venus flytrap.


A random non-orchid. Look at this furry cactus flower!

The main feature of the orangery was the orchids, so most of those will be in the next post. After this, we headed outside to do a quick wander around the rest of the gardens.


It felt a little too soon for the hyacinths to be pushing their way up. Usually we don't see those until March...

The fish weren't too sad about the warm weather!


One of my favorite koi in the pond: this white-gold one with the extra fancy fins.


The fancy yellow-gold one is Alex's favorite. But so many cool and pretty koi!


This one makes me laugh. The yellow one was so excited at the potential for food that it lifted that little orange one out of the water on its head entirely!


They're so pretty.

I really like the extra-fancy finned fish, though there are fairly few of them in the pond. It's often just been the silvery white one and the bright yellow one. This year, we were excited to see a few younger ones with the same extra-long fins:


This one is very cute already, and will be lovely when it grows up more.


Snowdrops!


Too early for peonies to be trying to get in on anything!


It was a really beautiful day to be out! I'm glad we had the chance to go before the exhibit shut down. The orchids themselves were gorgeous, and pics of them will be in a different post!

A mental health day

Feb. 27th, 2026 10:23 pm
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  A little new snow to shovel today, this is two days in a row, it looks like winter has finally arrived, while friends in southern locations post spring flower photos. Indeed, I walked out into the side yard today to take a photo of the attic window to include in asking for an estimate to replace it as part of the [[Create an attic bedroom]] project, and, for the first time this year, the snow is deep enough that I got snow on the knees of my trousers, as my feet sunk deeper in than the height of my boots.
 I was so out of energy yesterday I took yesterday and today off of work. Boy did that decision pay off. I took a 1.5 hour nap after breakfast, and then did lots of tasks that seriously help my metal health:
 - tided away all of the clutter that has been accumulating 
 - washed the bedsheets 
 - washed both of the cat water fountains
 - started cleaning and inventorying the store room in the basement where we keep the home improvement supplies. Got the paints completely inventoried and found the missing silver paint, so now I have completed the test painting to compare the gold and silver over the chocolate brown paint.

I am feeling so much better!
 
Poor Keldor though, got his thumb too close to the sanding machine today and took a pretty serious chunk out of his thumbnail. Ow.
 
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Back in 2017, Alex had to have knee surgery. The meniscus in his right knee got a "bucket handle" tear, and the "handle" flipped up into the joint. Stuck in the joint, it meant he couldn't bend the knee at all.

It took way too long - a couple of months - to get surgery, by the time all the proper referrals happened.

Yesterday, his knee - the same one - started slightly bothering him. Nothing seemed to "happen." We ran some errands, went to the store, came home. Laying down for a bit he said it was hurting some, but we just chalked it up to the weather, maybe. Until it got worse throughout the afternoon, swelling and causing a ton of pain.

He said it felt basically exactly like it did pre-surgery, including being unable to bend the joint. Taking a look at info about meniscus tears... there's something like a 30% chance of having it re-tear and just do the same thing again. Rolled a bummer on that.

So fuck. He can get around slowly and suckily with a cane, but that's not sustainable. So... probably looking at ~surgery~ again. Also sucky, because this time he didn't even feel the tear itself happen, just the after-effects.

He's still sort of deciding what to do. The clinic he goes to no longer allows you to make appointments, and instead operates on a walk-in basis, where you see whoever is available. The process of waiting to get in with a doctor, waiting for a referral for imaging, getting the imaging appointment, getting back in to a (possibly different) doctor, waiting for a surgery referral, doing surgery consultation, getting the actual surgery date...
He's also considering going to the ER in the hopes that they will simply do the needed imaging there, and that it will cut out one set of appointments and referrals.

Of course, there's really no avoiding that it needs surgery, and putting off the first step isn't getting it dealt with faster.

At least his knee had the courtesy of waiting until I was mostly recovered and mobile before exploding.

This year is not getting any less fuck off worthy.

quick catch up

Feb. 25th, 2026 11:01 am
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Bussed in this morning for a meeting that didn't happen. but while on campus, I printed my favourite image of St. George and the dragon to use as a reference image when decorating my Camping loo in progress (However, this is the first time I have considered drawing the dragon, and not just the bliaut, so I never noticed before that there are two dragons in this image!). Then I caught the next bus home, because I could

Posting this from the bus, because I can. Know that even though I haven't posted here often lately, I have been continuing to write at least short posts in Obsidian on my phone, but not finding time to copy them here.
Today I managed to use the computer to push the last handful to my blog. So, rather than doing lots of post-dated posts (like I did last time I needed to catch up), I will just post a bunch of links, and you who are curious about what I have been up to can click through:

If you do click through, and you feel inspired to comment, be welcome back here for that part. If there is a way to have comments in GitHub pages, I haven't learned it yet.
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Happy year of the horse! Lunar new year was on Tuesday the 17th. This sticker is a Prezwalski horse by artist Featherbone.

This week was kind of a drag. The week started with the extremely sad news about my friend spikedluv passing away. While she'd passed away a couple weeks ago, I didn't learn about it until Sunday, and I very much miss her presence. I'm still sick, and at this point I'm just tired of it dragging on! I'm coughing a lot, and I'm tired, and I'm going through kleenex way faster than I'd like. Otherwise I feel mostly okay, but I'm just so tired of it, ha. Alex and I did have a lovely day on Monday, visiting the botanic gardens, but everything else was pretty blah. I did push through to get a lot done on Saturday, which sort of felt like it redeemed the do-nothing of the rest of the week, but I still did very little writing and am frustrated by how slow reading has been.

Goals for the week:

  • I did not finish reading Hell Bent, though I did read some almost every night
  • I did work on reviews
  • We did pet-sit for mom and Taylor
  • We went to the botanic gardens as a bit of a belated Valentine's day
  • I did not make my phone calls
  • I did not work on my reading page
  • I did not work on my WIP outline
  • I did water my plants. My poor plants.

Tracked habits:

  • Work - 5/7
  • Household Maintenance - 5/7
  • Physical Activity - 3/7
  • Wrote 500/1000+ Words - 0/7
  • Non-fiction Writing - 1/7 - over 1000 words
  • Meta Work - 2/7
  • Personal Writing - 4/7
  • Other Creative Things - 1/7
  • Reading - 7/7 - mostly I read Hell Bent, though I read a bit of my ebook; Alex and I read some of The Luminous Dead
  • Attention to Media - 7/7 - Sunday we watched the Olympics, and I fell asleep watching youtube; Monday we also watched some youtube; Tuesday we watched some Olympic figure skating, some news coverage, and later a review; Wednesday we watched some news and storm chasing, and then some game playthroughs; Thursday we watched more Olympic figure skating and ski mountaineering (which seems horrible, lol); Friday watched a gaming livestream and some Olympics; Saturday had some Olympics in the background.
  • Video Games - 0/7
  • Social Interaction - 3/7

Total words written: 1221 on reviews

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